Hope Is Like a Fever

My pain is like a river

That runs without a home

It eats through what's left of me

Where all warmth has turned to stone

Oh, do you even know how it feels

To suffocate in ways no one sees

To cage the howl that never sleeps

And call that your way to heal

My hope is like a fever

It burns but never dies

It paints the walls with reason

But lives inside the lies

Oh, do you even know how dying feels

To live on with a heart so weak

To cage the scream that never kneels

And call that your way to heal

I want the cure but need this ache

A sick delight I cannot shake

Each time I dare to feel alive

The dark reminds me to stay confined

To the rush that makes me sick

To the hope that clings too thick

Tell me if there's a better world on the other side

Tell me if this wait is worth the fight

I'm trapped where my demons hide

Behind the closed doors of my mind

They creep in corners, dark and keen

Waiting for the light in me to die

This scream never leaves my throat

That's the part that hurts the most