The Pain I Know

The pain I know

Feels like my only friend

It circles close

With a cold intent

The ache it brings

Won't let my mind ascend

So here I go

In this spiral again

I speak of the same

Old hurt on repeat

As if the damage could raise

My heart to its feet

I mouth the lies I tell

Just to play pretend

As if a softer script

Could revise my end

I could cheat my way out

And smile through the bleak

But even if I bowed

To the weight I meet

I'd lose myself

In that forced decree

'Cause even in defeat

I'd never feel free

Yeah, the pain I know

Feels like my only friend

It waits for me in the dark

Where my thoughts descend

I call for a calm

Just so I can pretend

That the pain I know

Is not becoming my end